here we go again..

Bloggers.. I've almost forgotten..
Has been two months past since I've logged in. Until today, I've realised that Im missing my blog so much. There's so much to talk about, so much to say about, so much to share about things happened between the 2 months passed and a new year 2010, many say that a new year is a new resolution, a new aim, a new ambition and etc but for me, its an ordinary life which I go through every year. As far as I consider, the routine of my lyfe never change as year passes by. I will still be eating, sleeping, working, studying, and doing things usually I do. This makes me sick and controlled all the time I think about it. Last year was a challenging year for me, especially during my final year with my lecturer. I had my though time enrolling my self during my classes. But it happens to be that I succeded with excellence. I was really shocked to see my results as I wouldnt believe that its true. And now that Im suppose to do my pracical training which will be my internship placement coming soon. My hardwork on finding a place to do my practical is'nt that easy as I taught. It gave me a difficult time too. I had to do many things just to spend only miserable 2 months on my practical. I waited patiently as the feedback to come, but as days passes by like a horse, I never got any feedback and any news from the places I've responded. I was really upset, I gave up as I had my aim and was so ambitious to do my training elsewer, out of the place, in the city, but finally, I got it in my college itself. My college, close to my home, only 5 minutes ride, and now Im working here, siting here on my office table, drinking a cup of coffee and writing my thoughts. I was so frustrated, so sad, shed tears, but Im helpless, as I was aiming high but eventually it never happened.

Now its almost 3 weeks passed since Im working here in my college, as my friends ask me where I got my practical training, I have to keep a thick face to answer them. Feeling really shy as they look down on me. Mostly my friends practical training are all situated far far away. Except for me, Im the only one guy doing my pratical training in my college, I have no choice as I had to adapt myself with the situation. Sometimes, I do think that doing my practical traning here helps me in many ways too. I started realizing that I could cover up my budget, not too many expenses all the time, next, I also realize that my house is closer as I could drive back home even if Im late from work and land on my bed right away, Im not stressed at my job place, my work is not heavy load and this might sound boring, a very easy going boss as well, a humble trainee and a quiet office environment. What else do I need??.. Besides that, road traffic is not a big matter for me as I travel by car all the time. All these is a good plus point which cheers up my life as it continues.


As a matter of fact that, I shall lead my life as how its suppose to be, faith is also is a part in life. I would just follow up with what that comes a long and find sweet reasons to please myself if Im discomfort with what happens next.


tis is -jay- who writes...